I have come to the conclusion that you can't move fully and successfully forward without releasing your grip on the past. I have this vision of myself hanging between two ropes and not moving forward or backward because I don't want to let go of either. It is that visualization that made me realize it is time to move on.
I am in the process of winding down my web design/development business and releasing that grip is a little scary. I have spent many years working hard to cultivate strong business relationships and a successful business and it is hard to release the known to move on into the unknown.
For a while I thought about the prospect of continuing my existing business while starting the non-profit HeART Touch Outreach and all the while trying to feed my passion for my art. You can't be a slave to two masters and in the end my art always was the one to suffer. Why was I putting aside my passion for something that was ultimately just a paycheck and not my true calling? I'm not the type of person who dreams in coding languages...though it would sometimes keep me up at night. I am an artist...an artist who happened to be good at writing code too...yet still down to the core an artist.
So now the time has come. Our goal is to have the tax legalities filed and approved so we can move forward by Mother's Day. That being said, I am in the process of finishing up my current obligations with existing clients and will be notifying others of the changes. I am finding it hard to say no to those I have worked hard to help make their business efforts successful. I just need to keep in mind that it is now my turn to make my dreams a success too.
